How to Spiritually Beat Depression

11 Nov

by Ruth Pippen, guest writer

Depression stems from long periods of being frustrated that you haven’t gotten your own way, or that you are all alone, even in a crowd, or that no-one understands you, etc.

Depression hurts you and others around you.

Why are you depressed? Who is behind the depression? And what can you do about it, to eliminate it forever? Depression is a state of fear. Depression is the impression left by fear. It is caused by a lack of faith and knowledge of God and doing His Will – (Hosea 4:6; Matt. 6:10).

How does depression happen, especially when you are a God-fearing man or woman? Has anyone ever told you, “We are ALL in a spiritual war, a spiritual war within our selves?” (Psalm 23, Matt. 10:38, Luke 9:23, Gal. 2:20, Rom. 8:1-8)

Romans 7:21-25
7:21
I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me.
7:22 For (the Being part of me, inside,) delights in The Law of God:
7:23 But I see another law in my (human) members, warring against the law of my mind (Being), and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my (human) members.
7:24 O wretched man that I am! Who shall deliver me from the body of this death?
7:25 I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind (Being) I myself serve The Law of God; but with the flesh (human) the law of sin.

Organized religions will tell you to fight satan, the temporary prince of this world, but they do not tell you how, because they are charlatans (2 Cor. 11:13-15) and do not know. Do they ever tell you the truth, that the real war against satan, which MUST be fought and overcome, is within each and every one of us (Matt. 16:23, Rev. 2:7-11, 2:17, 2:26, 3:5, 3:12, 3:21, 21:7)?

1 Peter 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:

Most human+beings today mistakenly think they are doing what God wants them to do, when in fact they are doing their own selfish will instead. We have all been trained to see everything upside down and backwards, from a worldly, human point-of-view, instead of from a right-side up spiritual point-of-view. Keeping this in mind, please take a look at your priorities first, which should hopefully provide a better idea about what needs to change within you, to rid yourself of depression for good (John 1:1-16). By practicing the four suggestions of defense discussed below, depression can be easily overcome.

Psalm 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.

Ephesians 4:18 Having the understanding darkened, being alienated from the Life of God through the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart:

Do you find yourself often wishing things were different, wishing they would hurry up and change, and then intentionally or unwittingly enforcing your own self-will, to effect the changes YOU think need to happen to make you “happy”, instead of simply accepting that the universe is unfolding exactly as it should?

Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but, if you turn your mind to other things, like helping others, it comes and sits softly on your shoulder.

Would you have a problem accepting Father’s Divine Plan and Will for you, if it meant making some significant changes in your life (Matt. 7:21-24, John 5:30, 6:38, 7:17, 9:31)?

Philippians 4:6 Be afraid for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

Matthew 6:7 But when ye pray, use NOT vain repetitions, as the heathen [DO]: for they think that they shall be heard for their much speaking.
6:8 Be NOT ye therefore like unto them: for your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, BEFORE ye ask Him.
6:9 After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be Thy name.
6:10 Thy Kingdom come. Thy Will (God’s Will – ask Him) be done in earth, as [it is] in heaven.

The first step to solving any problem is recognizing and admitting it exists. Constantly wanting to change others, instead of yourself, and not being accepting of your God-given circumstances can cause frustration.

1 Thessalonians 5:18 In every thing give thanks: for this is the Will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.

How could it not be frustrating, to repeatedly ponder on a fantasy (lie), over an extended period of time, about the lessons and tests you’ve been given, thinking you know better than God how to orchestrate your life? Thoughts like: “Why am I having to go through this?” or “when is this ever going to change, the way I want it to?” should be immediately recognized for what they are: unfulfilled self-will causing self-pity. The sooner one recognizes these thoughts for what they are, and from whom they originate (self-pity is a dark, satanic, self-centered emotion – Jer. 17:9; Proverbs 23:7), the sooner one can cut them off, instead of allowing them to grow into a depressed state of mind.

Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not; for I [am] with thee: be not dismayed; for I [am] thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of My Righteousness.

Wouldn’t it be a far more productive use of time, to ponder what can be done to genuinely help others—beginning with the one thing we actually have control over: our selves—rather than worrying about things we cannot change?

Words of Wisdom: God, please grant me the serenity, to accept the things that I can not change; the courage, to change the things that I can change; and the Wisdom, to always know the difference between the two.

Thinking back-to-front, like humans do, causes frustration, because we have not gotten our way. We are so busy getting what we want, when we want it, in this world of instant gratification that we forget to ask God what He wants (Matt. 6:10) us to do, much less have the patience to wait for His answer. Just remember, EVERYTHING happens for a Divine reason; it is up to each of us to have the faith to find out why. It is the faithful search for that Divine reason (the journey) that brings us joy, which is the remedy to all depression.

The First Line of Defense

The only way to overcome the frustration is to take control of your own mind, by earnestly seeking to find out what Father’s Will is for your life, and then lovingly and gratefully accept it. The FIRST STEP to knowing what Father’s Will is for YOU, is to draw closer to Him, get to know Him for the Father He wants to be (John 17:3), and ask Him. That begins by following His instructions found in the Bible (Basic Instruction Before Leaving Earth) and by following His 12 Commandments, and The Law found in The Torah, the first five books of the Bible.

Mark 12:29 And Jesus answered him, The First of all the Commandments [is], Hear, O Israel; The Lord our God is one Lord:
12:30 And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength and serve Him ONLY: this [is] the first COMMANDment.

There’s a whirlwind of never-ending satan-inspired man-made thoughts swirling around inside people’s heads, at any given moment. It’s the constant self-absorbed thinking about what we want, how we want it, who’s going to give it to us, when it’s going to happen, and why it isn’t happening fast-enough, going on in our minds, which is robbing us of our peace and joy, even though most of those things would actually be wrong for, and harmful to us and those around us. It MUST stop. Those random thoughts are NOT you (the real you, the spirit-Being within), nor are they from Father (God). How could anyone possibly think straight, with a storm constantly raging inside one’s own mind? And yet most in this world choose to live their lives being sucked into that emotional storm, day in and day out, being blown wherever the storm takes them, without ever realizing it’s leading them to their eventual destruction (Isaiah 3:12).

Malachi 3:18 Then shall ye return, and discern between the righteous and the wicked, between him that serveth God and him that serveth Him not.

The quiet place of refuge within your own mind is, unsurprisingly, like in a cyclone, in the eye of the storm (Psalm 91). That’s where it is calm and peaceful and possible to be at ONE with Father. Learn to retreat into that safe, secret place with Father, whenever you begin to feel the storm and pressures of the world. Eventually you’ll never want to leave it.

John 10:30 I and [my] Father are at one.

John 17:21 That they all may be one; as Thou, Father, [art] in me, and I in Thee, that they also may be one in Us: that the world may believe that Thou hast sent me.
John 17:22 And the glory which Thou gavest me I have given them; that they may be one, even as We are One:
John 17:23 I in them, and Thou in me, that they may be made perfect in one; and that the world may know that Thou hast sent me, and hast loved them, as Thou hast loved me.

By pausing to establish that telepathic connection with Father, you are letting Him know that, of your own free-will, you want Him to be in control of your life, NOT you. Is He not the Best of Planners? Are His Ways not Perfect?

Psalm 18:30 [As for] God, His Way [is] Perfect: the Word of the “I AM” is tried: He [is] a buckler/shield to all those that trust in Him.

By loving Father with all your heart, with ALL your mind, soul, and strength, above everything else, and seeking to do ONLY His Will, you will be getting rid of your self-will, one blow at a time. That all-important pause, to put Him first in our lives, is the necessary first step toward actually obeying the First COMMANDment, upon which all the other Commandments hang (Mark 12:29-31).

Also, by pausing to receive His Guidance, before speaking or doing anything, you will be practicing a healthy, Loving relationship/friendship with the Truth, HIM, The King and Ruler of The Universe.

Psalm 46:10 Be still, and know that I [am] God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.

The Second Line of Defense

Learn to THINK.

Henry Ford is quoted as having said: “Of all the jobs, thinking is the most difficult, which is why so few choose to do it.” Amazingly, none of us seem to know what it means to really think, because the prince of this world (Lucifer/Satan/The Devil) has trained us not to do so, and has filled our minds with his unceasing nonsense. Where is the best place to think? In a calm, peaceful place: that place of refuge within your own mind. Control, Control, Control, your thoughts, staying calm at all cost, will allow you to think, hear Father’s voice, instead of satan’s, and have a knowing. If emotions come, and they all come from satan, just say to your self, I am not listening to that today, I am NOT going to entertain those thoughts (Psalm 23; Eph. 6:12-18).

Philippians 4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things [are] honest, whatsoever things [are] just, whatsoever things [are] pure, whatsoever things [are] lovely, whatsoever things [are] of good report; if [there be] any virtue, and if [there be] any praise, think on THESE things.

How could anyone actually have time to think about anything, when they’re BUSY* rushing around trying to get this or that job done as quickly, and thus as poorly, as possible, so they can get to the next one (possibly doing the first job over again, because they rushed and made a mess of it) and rush through it the same way, in an endless, repeating cycle? We need to learn to STOP, and think everything through very carefully, first, BEFORE acting on it, otherwise we’re just going through the motions, actually we are sleep-walking inside our human body (Dan. 12:2), and are at the mercy of the emotional storm. Here lies the danger.

* BUSY – Being Under Satan’s Yoke.

1 Thessalonians 5:6 Therefore let us NOT sleep (spiritually), as [do] others; but let us watch and be sober.

Are you always looking to the future in fear, or trying to re-live the past, (you can’t step twice on the same piece of water), never having your mind fully focused on where you are and what you are doing, and thus making a mess, or breaking things that you then have to clean up, or repair, or replace? Wouldn’t it be better to stay awake and focus fully and not make a mess and break things, so you don’t have to clean up the mess, or work to earn the money to replace what Satan the Destroyer (Rev. 9:11) made you break? Looking to the future or the past is what takes us away from Father’s presence and spiritual guidance, which are only available in the present moment, and only available to the meek and HUMBLE (Prov. 22:4, Matt. 5:5, 12:30, James 3:13, Philippians 2:3-11).

Matthew 23:12 And whosoever shall exalt himself shall be abased; and he that shall humble himself shall be exalted.

Every word we speak and every action we take BEGINS as a thought. Logically, if one can learn to control their thoughts, that is to consciously choose good thoughts (speaking and listening to Father/GO(o)D ) over evil ones (listening to and obeying satan/Liar/Devil), then the words and actions that come from those GOOD thoughts will naturally put our lives on a different, healthier and more productive, joyful path. How could it not?

Your mind IS the real you, the spirit-Being within. Why not share it with Father all the time, receiving His GOOD and LOVING Guidance every step of The Way? Every moment not spent with Father—the Source of All Love and Joy—is actually spent listening to satan, the source of all fear, hatred and depression (John 3:16, 14:15, 21-24, Eph. 2:4, 1 John 2:3-7).

1 John 4:8 He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God IS love (NOT emotion).

It’s really that simple, but it isn’t always easy. We MUST wake-up spiritually and stay mentally awake at all times, to remain calm and unswayed by human emotions, which satan uses to control us (John 3:1-13), (Eph. 4:14).

Enoch 92:19 Who is there of all the children of men, capable of hearing the voice of The Holy One WITHOUT emotion?

Satanic selfishness is the root cause of depression. It therefore should be self-evident, that, to get rid of depression forever, requires ridding our minds of satanic influence and his continually selfish, evil thoughts (On the British Coat of Arms it states: “Honi soit qui mal y pense”, which is old French and is one of God’s rules concerning His advice and Divine-Justice, and which means, “Evil be to him who thinks it”).

Galatians 6:7 Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, THAT shall he also reap.

The beginning of all true Wisdom is HUMILITY, humbling our selves, fearing Father and His almighty Power is the beginning of Wisdom (Psalm 53, 111:10, Isa. 64:6, Rom. 3:10-12).

Proverbs 9:10 The fear of the “I AM” [is] the beginning of Wisdom: and the Knowledge of the holy [is] Understanding.

James 4:10 Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He shall lift you up.

Admitting we don’t know better than Father how to run our own lives, and acknowledging Father ALWAYS knows best, because He knows EVERYTHING, is the first step to correcting our errant thinking and behavior. Stop worrying (Luke 12:22-34) about what everyone else is doing wrong (Luke 6:41-42). Focus your thoughts on your own shortcomings instead. He knows us better than we know ourselves, ask Father what YOU can do to change yourself for the better. Then be ready to patiently listen and willing to make the necessary improvements that you need to do, as if your life depended upon it. It does (Matt. 16:27)!

Learn to think/pray/talk with Father without ceasing (1 Thess. 5:17)! Filled to overflowing with His Love and Understanding, how could anyone ever be depressed (Psalm 23, John 16:22)?

Romans 15:13 Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Spirit.

Discipline is the hallmark of discipleship. A disciplined mind will help produce a disciplined body and life.

Matthew 28:19 Go ye therefore, and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them with the Holy Spirit: in the name of the Father, by the teachings of the Son.

Job 36:10 He openeth also their ear to discipline, and commandeth that they return from inequity.

You’ll be amazed at how your daily marching-orders will materialize, if you put your faith/trust in Father and His Plan, instead of letting your self try to plan ahead for you. Never doubt His plan for each of us, and the protection only Father can provide, as He’s promised to do, IF we are doing His Will.

There is a plan for your lives that, for completion, depends upon the faithful work of each day. You frustrate that plan if you leave today’s task incomplete, while you bestir and fret yourself over the past, or tomorrow’s happenings.

Matthew 6:34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient for the day [is] the evil thereof.

The frustration of the Divine Plan is man’s tragedy.

The Third Line of Defense

Embrace discipline to help train your spiritual ears to hear Father (Prov. 3:12). Practice makes perfect, so why not practice telepathic communication with Father all day long? How else can any of us hope to hear Father’s small, still and sweet voice of truth and reason (Matt. 13:9), unless we practice turning to Him for everything, with clear minds that are ready to be filled with His Love and Wisdom and Understanding (Matt. 9:16-17)?

Every thought, decision or endeavor provides an opportunity for training (2 Cor. 5:17). You’ll be absolutely amazed at what Father will show you, if you’re receptive and devoted to doing only His Will. But you have to be ready to relinquish all allegiances to earth’s and your heart’s desires.

Jeremiah 17:9 The heart [is] deceitful above all [things], and desperately wicked: who can know it?

Keeping pace with the world as it rushes by is not The Way. You will also have to train your mind to stop listening to that loud, obnoxious, nagging voice inside your head, that you used to think is you (but is really satan within, trying to distract you and nagging you to get you to do his will). Hasn’t satan already wasted enough of your time getting you to listen to him and his lies and nonsense for the past few thousand years (Prov. 18:2)?

Start each day with a clean slate by taking out the trash. Prepare your mind a blank page for the day and Father to write upon. Give satan the boot. Stop listening to his depressing drivel (Isa. 30:10). The quicker one recognizes and rids oneself of satanic, selfish thoughts, the more time there is to learn to listen to Father’s Good voice, which we all have inside us, if only we exercise faith and patience, by turning inward, to listen for His in-tuition.

The Fourth Line of Defense

Loving acceptance is the key to Divine Revelation. Tireless effort to know and do only Father’s Will always pays its dividends. It will reshape lives, beginning with our own. How could it not?

Jeremiah 29:11

Accepting His plans, and resting assured that He is The Best Planner, will produce the Holiness and True Happiness (Joy) that each of us so desire.

Sura 8:30 Remember how the Unbelievers plotted against thee, to keep thee in bonds, or slay thee, or get thee out (of thy home). They plot and plan, and “I AM” too plans, but the Best of Planners is “I AM”.

How could anyone be frustrated or depressed in Father’s Service? You don’t need the world to accept or reward you. All anyone needs is to know that Father’s Will has been done, serving the greater, common good. Loving others first, love thy neighbor as thy self, in other words put them first, as the Scripture Commands, taking the focus off of our selfish heart’s desires.

Jeremiah 17:9 The heart [is] deceitful above all [things], and desperately wicked: who can know it?

Mark 12:31 And the second [is] like, [namely] this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other COMMANDment greater than these.

That is how we can free ourselves from the self-created prison and depression in our own minds, caused by seeking to serve our own selfish interests and heart’s desires, instead of what’s best for all concerned.

Conclusion

Satanic selfishness is the root cause of depression. We therefore MUST clear our minds of all satanic influence and his continually selfish, evil thoughts; replacing them with thoughts of Love, and how to serve the greater, common good, as Christ exemplified.

1 Corinthians 10:21 Ye cannot drink the cup of the Lord [the cup of “Self”- sacrifice – Matt. 26:42], and the cup of devils [selfishness]: ye cannot be sharers of the Lord’s table, and of the table of devils.

If we seek FIRST the Kingdom of God and HIS Righteousness, everything else we need will be provided (Matt. 6:33-34). There is no need to worry about tomorrow; instead stay focused on the moment, doing everything possible to fight evil everywhere it is found, starting within yourself. If you have everything you need, and God’s Loving Purpose mapped out for you on a daily basis, there is no place for selfishness and depression to gain a foothold (James 3:16).

Sura 2:216 Fighting is prescribed for you, and ye dislike it. But it is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing that is bad for you. But God knoweth, and ye know not (which is which).

Find the joy in perfect planning, which naturally comes through spiritual converse with Father. It is through this connection with Him that He can transfer His Love, Wisdom, Understanding, Joy, Peace, Patience, longsuffering, gentleness, Safety and Security to His attentive, appreciative and receptive (adopted) children (Gal. 5:22). Where the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness and faith, then fear, hatred and depression simply cannot exist. Faith (trust in Father, and accepting He knows what’s best for all of us) and Love drive out all fear.

1 John 4:19 He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God IS love (NOT emotion).

Father plans for you and what you have need of, before you need it, or even know you’re going to need it (Jeremiah 1:5). He is the best friend any one can have 24 hours a day. Live WITH Him, in the moment, to free yourself from all fear, including depression. Only then will you be able to LIVE LIFE to the fullest. This is real JOY.

None of these things being shared would be possible without Father’s Greatest Gift (Rom. 5:15-18, 6:23, Eph. 4:7): His Son, Prince Michael, Christ, Who has now given us the KEY to understanding the BIBLE, as promised (Rev. 2:17, 10:7-10) That KEY is the little book/white stone – “The Way home or face The Fire”, available as a free gift to the world at thewayhomeorfacethefire.net. This is the ONLY Survival Plan that will work, and is the cure for all ills.

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Who is the ‘Self’ and How it Can Wreak Havoc in your Life

As you read on, hopefully you will be able to see how the ‘self’ can delude, twist and use you with all its evil ways to manipulate your life, while pretending to be your best friend.

We were married for 25 years, while building memories together, loving each other the best way we knew how, it got to the point of my knowing something had to give. Life had to be more than this, getting up each morning to the same ol’ routine. I was not awakening in the morning looking forward to discussing what Father wants to teach both of us today (remember, the man is the leader). Instead, we both did our chores for the day, only coming together to have an outing; going down to the marina; or walk around seeing all the beautiful yachts; or going inside the local thrift shops together; or to just talk together, etc. We always ate breakfast, lunch and dinner together, when he wasn’t gone working on projects. Of course, we met in the middle and talked with each other during the day, but, in the end, went back to our chores. I knew there was something missing, but didn’t know exactly what it was then, but I do now.

Fast forward to today and learning about true Spiritual Love, learning one can only learn to Love correctly, if they are constantly in the presence of Father. I finally came to a place in my life where I had to ask myself: How can I say I am in Love with my husband, if he doesn’t possess and follow Christ’s example and teachings? For a long time I believed he did have Christ in his life, i.e., knowing his grandmother, and how she lived, and being told of their past, since his grandparents were the ones who brought him up. Eventually, when it got to the point of not being able to talk about Christ, without his hairs on his chest standing up, it was then realized Christ wasn’t in his life, as was falsely believed before. I was the main one who read the Yoda/devotion in the morning and evening. When he did read, it was quick and without meaning. At mealtimes, I said the prayer most of time, but when he did pray out loud (Matthew 6:6) it was also quick and without meaning. These things have to not only be read, but lived.

When I say love, I mean real love, not an emotional infatuation, fake love, like the world teaches. I have now learned human love is loving what the other person does for you, a fleeting counterfeit love. Spiritual Love is laying down your life for the other person, every day, helping them spiritually. With the help of my Spiritual Guide and His wonderful words of Wisdom, I decided to change the environment for a bit. So I packed up my car with what was thought would be necessary for a short while, under the pretense of going to visit relatives. I never did let him know that something was missing in our marriage. I now know the missing piece was that Christ/God was not at the helm, as He should have been, as the Bible teaches. If we had talked it out, the outcome could have been confrontational.https://i1.wp.com/3.bp.blogspot.com/-ZzQgd514UDQ/UYFIiKwZljI/AAAAAAAAA8M/s16D71nbV0w/s1600/19CA2A3GEJCAZUF107CAVPUUAKCARPMIQ4CA2E4T83CAZREZTKCAWCOZNTCAQ94T5MCAQKTL3WCADJBIYICA78E942CAULI1MUCAE8OROFCAX11M67CADJALOYCA1XWC1OCAO88HY1CAG2Y1M8CAJF4N1ECAUZH86P.gif?w=768&ssl=1 I don’t know, but at least he would have known there wasn’t true happiness: something was wrong. I so regret not speaking with him, before I left. I know now that Christ/God was not the one leading my husband. Because of his amazing arrogance, thinking he didn’t need anybody reigning over him, because he’s a know-it-all, how could it be the true love I was looking for in our marriage, if Christ wasn’t in his life?

I truly didn’t think it would take that long. With my being gone for such a long time, even though he continued to coax me to come back, I just hoped he would come to his senses, realize something was wrong, and actually ask me why I wasn’t coming back to him. Instead, he was oblivious to what was happening. He presumed he did no wrong, arrogance beyond belief, blaming me for everything. There was also my own arrogance, of knowing he would miss me and thinking he would ask me what happened. I wasn’t even aware I was arrogant, but Father was showing me my true colors, that I needed to get rid of my arrogance and trying to make things happen my way, and not accepting what Father’s Will was for me. I needed to become more responsible for myself, and not want the instant gratification I had always been given upon asking. I know now that instant, self-gratification was actually hurting my Spirit Being, by him giving me more that I asked for. I loved this instant, self gratification he always gave. Why would I want to give that up?

I first went to my son’s house and visited with him and his wife. Unknown at the time, they were having underlying issues too, for the same reason as me and my husband, and most other couples as well. While staying at their home, keeping it clean, taking care of animals and cooking, a binder was put together of various studies that interested me, such as Codes found in the Bible, information on the Crucifixion, God’s Diet, Prophetic Route, who is JAH (see Psalm 68:4), etc. In front of the binder was inserted the words to the song; Change My Heart Oh God. The first few lines go like this – Change my heart Oh God, Make it ever true, Change my heart oh God, May I be like You. You are the Potter, I am the clay, Mold me and make me, This is what I pray. On the back of the binder was inserted the Scriptures from The Book of Jeremiah 18:1-6. My ‘self’ was constantly telling me to go back home, my spirit-being asked: to what though, the same thing? The ‘self’ seems to be constantly leading you astray, which is why you have to take up your cross of ‘self’-sacrifice daily (Luke 9:23). It is so bad, you must constantly be on the lookout for how your actions will affect not only you, but others around you, far and near.

At the time, inserting the song on the front and Scriptures on the back, was my way of asking Father to change the heart of my husband, from a heart of stone to a heart of flesh (Ezekiel 11:19), to find Christ and start being the leader that I always wanted, but, little did I know, I was actually asking Father to change my own heart, which He definitely did.

Since the stay with my son and his wife wasn’t working, I left to go and stay with my sister and her husband for a short while. Before arriving at my sister’s house, I stopped at a store to buy a page of hearts to be placed on the page, Change my heart O God. After about a week, it was apparent they both definitely had different beliefs, and tried to pull me into directions (their ‘self’ actually) I knew was wrong, i.e.: buying another car and going into debt, saving for this holiday and that. The ‘self’ was constantly pulling at me to go down the path of destruction, whether it be to go into debt, or go back home, to what I had left. Neither of these visits worked well, my son’s or sister’s. By listening to my Spiritual Guide and His words of Wisdom, God’s Magical Mystery Tour led me to a friend’s house, where I could be helpful with her situation. Little did I know this is where Father was planting me, with someone who was like-minded, and who had the same morals and beliefs as I did. I felt we had known each other forever, which actually we did through reincarnation. I made the trip down to her house, after accepting this was Father’s Will for me, and eventually it became my home as well.

I arrived with such anger, frustration, depression, self-pity and fear inside, which is the ‘self’ coming out in its full glory and force, all of the self’s ominous ways. The self was giving me fits with its bad and many conglomerations of emotions. One day, it was so bad with all these emotions surrounding me (like a hurricane really), it became quite uncomfortable for both my special friend and myself. So uncomfortable, it instigated a “garage talk” out of Loving concern for my well Being. She told me how the “self” was overtaking me/my spirit Being, with all the emotions above, and it/self needed to be stopped, NOW. Her concern was my ‘self’ was going to completely take over and was going to drag me back to what I left.

After my arrival, it was soon discovered there was ongoing evil taking place in the form of a law enforcement case. When this was discovered, the self did not, in any way, want to help or take part in helping fight this evil. I’ve been there, (working in the past for law enforcement), done that, and didn’t want to do that again: how arrogant on my part. By not taking part in this, how I hurt so many people, and how sorry I am for that, at that time though, this was the path I chose. Today, I can say truthfully that every chance I get, I do take part in fighting this evil, whether it be sending out emails, going to the courthouse, or just having a shoulder when needed.

The garage talk was when the truth really came out about who the “self” was, and how all these dark emotions were absolutely engulfing my human and spirit-being, trying its best to convince me to go back to my husband. It kept telling me I didn’t need to do all these chores around here; that I could go back to what I was used to – instant gratification and doing what I wanted, when I wanted.

It took a long time for my spirit to accept the Truth about the self, how deceptive it is, and how it pretends to be your friend, by telling you what it wants you to hear, but not the Truth. With all the self’s above emotions inside whirling around like a hurricane, and never seeming to stop, I must admit that it was a definite roller-coaster-ride, that wasn’t pleasant at all. I was very slothful; didn’t want to work; just do the necessary things around the house. This is what I was used to and didn’t want to change. It took about 2 years to even begin to come out of this whirlwind. All in all, it took a total of almost 3 years, before I started to really see the Truth. This was a great feeling and certainly started to bring harmony into my life and surroundings. In my opinion, the only way to step outside of this whirlwind is with determination and Father’s/TM’s help, which will win your freedom back. It is so true, the Truth will set you free (John: 8:23).

“It took a true friend to put up with me and endure those horrid 3 years, and what I must have put her through every day. That’s true friendship that is only possible with Father’s help. I hope you can all find that kind of friend.”

The satan within (the ‘self’ again) still tries to pull me away, and go back to what I left, but with the determination previously mentioned, it won’t happen. I was angry at God for not making things the way I wanted and thought they should be: thinking I knew best what was good for me. I actually didn’t even know I was angry at God, until I started writing about my feelings. God is certainly not the one to be angry at, when He is so compassionate and loving, and wants to help in the best way possible not only for us, but for everyone. I was actually mad at my husband for not changing, which led into self-pity and certainly fear of the unknown – what was going to happen next? Alone again? I (the self/satan really telling me all this), certainly did not want to participate in any of the chores that needed to be done at the ranch. There came a time when I knew the car title needed to be changed to this state, change my address and make it permanent, talk about hard. Please see https://hannahmichaels.wordpress.com/?s=fear&submit=Search – this is a wonderful video on Irrational Fear made by TM. It was hard to deal with all these emotions, but, with Father and TM’s help, and all my special friends, I began to “see”, finally after 2 ½ years, maybe 3 or so living here, just a little bit of the real culprit, the “self”. I now see we were unequally yoked (2 Corinthians 6:14 Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion hath light with darkness?

6:15 And what concord hath Christ with Wickedness? Or what part hath he that believeth with an infidel?

6:16 And what agreement hath The Temple of God with idols? for ye are the temple of the Living God; as God hath said, I will dwell in them, and walk in [them]; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people.

6:17 Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean [thing]; and I will receive you,

6:18 And will be a Father unto you, and ye shall be My [adopted] sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty.)

Eventually, this change that was needed started to happen. I began to “see” that my husband had his own free-will choice, whether to follow Christ or not. This was very hard to accept and swallow, to say the least. I certainly played my part, by not pointing him back in the right direction, back towards God. Not doing as much cooking as I should have, just making sure we had three square meals a day. Trying new recipes, filling the house with the aroma of homemade bread or whatever, very seldom happened. I kept the house clean, but probably not as clean as it should have been. I wish we had studied The Law together or even read http://thewayhomeorfacethefire.net and lived both of them together, but we stayed in our separate rooms, except when time came to eat together, or have outings, as mentioned above. We certainly talked with each other when we wanted a break, but it just wasn’t what it should have been. We both loved to sail, but he did most of the sailing. So it’s not like we were never together, but the one thing, in my opinion, which is so important, we didn’t study The Word together, or talk about Christ/God. Over time, his arrogance and listening to the bad voice (the ‘self’/satan), thinking he knew it all, (actually the self/satan again deceiving him) overtook him. We now live both estranged in separate homes, in different states. He was asked to give me a Bill of Divorcement but, to this day, that hasn’t happened. I constantly continue to pray for him, for him to wake-up and ‘see’ who his ‘self’ really is, and how it pretends to be his best friend, and how it absolutely raises havoc. Have you heard the saying; You are your own worst enemy? The human you are inhabiting is your spirit-being’s and its own worst enemy (the satan within and around you). No photo description available.

The chores are now looked upon as teachings and lessons that needed to be learned, i.e. cooking, cleaning, chores which are now done on a daily basis – cleaning, taking care of animals/feeding them, mowing the yard as needed, weeding in the garden – my goodness, the list goes on. Oh, I still make mistakes, we all do, but strive to be perfect as our Father Who is in Heaven, is perfect.

I continue to pray my husband digs himself out of this pit, dark hole, finds Christ and starts to follow Him. Up to this point, as far as I know, that hasn’t happened. Maybe it will someday, but I have had false hope for so long, it’s time to move on.

I also have learned everything happens for a reason. During the last few years of my husband and I being together, he shared the little book with me called, “The Way Home or face The Fire”. The link is https:/thewayhomeorfacethefire.net which, upon reading from beginning to end, has literally changed my life, for the good, but not his, because he only read it and spoke about it, but didn’t digest and live it (Revelation 10:9 And I went unto the angel, and said unto him, Give me the little book. And he said unto me, Take [it], and eat it up; and it shall make thy belly bitter, but it shall be in thy mouth as sweet as honey.

This book is free to the whole world, and a must read for everyone; the title is self-explanatory. This book was written in 40 days, does that tell you anything about who the author is?

Ladies, if you feel God wants to take you on His Magical Mystery Tour, please listen to Him and follow His Will, not your own ‘self’-will (Matthew 6:10). I really encourage you to set Spiritual Goals/Healthy Boundaries and stick to them, no matter the cost, get determined and don’t waiver. March on soldier.